Let It Out

Nezemarth, whatever you're going through, I hope you're okay. I haven't been this confused by an entire Let It Out page in a long time. Specifically, I'm not really sure what all of these posts meant, but they don't sound like your usual writing.

A Jesus Christ figure and a point system... I'm not sure how the two are related. As much as I understand both the merits and flaws of the point system when we had it, Jesus Christ would probably be against a point system, if anything. After all, He teaches love, and one aspect of love is that it keeps no record of rights or wrongs, or who is better than another, etc. It's nice to know you look up to people like me, but you don't by any chance associate me with the idea of suicide?

Wait, what?! What are you saying?!

Also, what seven people?

I don't know how any of these sentences are related, or how they'd be anything I'd expect to read from you.

Yikes, that's so sad. I hope you weren't eexaggerating here, and if you weren't, that's terrible.

I'm still not sure what exactly it is you were hospitalized for and what actually upsets you, but if you want to talk to someone, I'm here. Don't give up on yourself. Please.

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To be honest? I'm starting to think Nezemarth just pulled out little things that bothered him out of a hat and into an incohesive mess to cover up what's actually affecting him. That's really the only reason how I think the 2016 Summer Contest and the old points system could be related to this.



...but yeah, this quote so much:

This still legit worries me. I wouldn't accept it as a joke or a hyperbole, either.

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...I'm actually legit concerned for you, Nezemarth. Like, this is not okay. You said you were hospitalised for something, and everyone is confused and worried for your mental health. I'm sure you don't want everyone to know why, but please, for your sake, seek help.

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Hmm... I didn't mean to get anyone's attention, but the people from my offline life haven't a clue about what ails me, and the prejudices I have to ignore in order to give a 'benefit of the doubt' are quite blatantly crazy.

Don't worry, I simply wanted to see what the people on this site care for me. I'm sorry, but it's been difficult to believe in myself when my actions aren't rewarded. I can understand being a terrible hypocrite, but people don't even consider 'WHY' I might be this way. Literally: my life feels like a reboot of 13 Reasons Why, where I blame a bunch of people for my own problems, when it's simply a lack of attention I've felt.

Sorry for everyone who thought I was currently undergoing such severe problems. I'm an 18 year old high school student, but I didn't know how much my brain could handle- as in, I couldn't sleep level of severity.

If anyone wants to PM me, I'll be happy to reply...


True- my mother had recently lost two of her brothers to cancer, but she simply didn't know how to comfort me, and vice versa. And then came this school psychologist who wanted to drag my parents in the situation I've been dealing with in real life, and now I feel ruined.

That's not to say I would injure or kill myself under any REASONABLE circumstances, but I do feel like a ghost who needs the internet to survive.


I apologize- I've asked my classmates if they would 'murder me', because human contact scares me a lot, and I wanted to take the most roundabout method I could think of.

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What was happening in this thread and where was I for all this?



Anyway, have you ever wanted to see someone's attempted project to fit existing DDR charts to a 1-100 scale? No? Well HERE IT IS!


1: After the Game of Love Beginner
1: LOVE IS THE POWER :Reborn: Beginner
3: bag Beginner
5: BRILLIANT 2U Beginner
10: Butterfly Basic
25: AFRONOVA Basic
30: Funk Boogie Expert
35: B4U Difficult
36: TRIP MACHINE Difficult
37: Freeway Shuffle Expert
38: ECSTACY Expert
40: AM-3P Expert
42: BRILLIANT 2U Expert
43: BRILLIANT 2U Challenge
45: La Senorita Expert
45: 321 STARS Expert
47: TRIP MACHINE Expert
48: SP-TRIP MACHINE (Jungle Mix) Expert
50: PARANOiA Expert
50: TRIP MACHINE (luv mix) Expert
52: A Expert
53: PARANOiA MAX (Dirty Mix) Expert
55: V (for EXTREME) Expert
60: La Senorita Virtual Expert
60: PARANOiA Rebirth Expert
60: TRIP MACHINE CLIMAX Expert
63: V (for EXTREME) Challenge
65: A Challenge
66: Pluto Expert
67: AFRONOVA Expert
70: Healing Vision (Angelic Mix) Expert
70: SAKURA Expert
73: Valkyrie dimension Difficult
75: MAX 300 Expert
75: The legend of MAX Expert
76: MAXX UNLIMITED Expert
76: TRIP MACHINE PhoeniX Expert
77: Pluto Challenge
77: TRIP MACHINE PhoeniX Challenge
78: MAX. (period) Expert
80: MAX 300 (Super Max Me Mix) Challenge
80: PARANOiA Survivor MAX Challenge
82: Fascination MAXX Expert
83: Pluto Relinquish Expert
86: Fascination MAXX Challenge
87: Valkyrie dimension Expert
87: Healing-D-Vision Challenge
88: Pluto Relinquish Challenge
90: Fascination ~eternal love mix~ Challenge
90: PARANOiA ~HADES~ Challenge
93: 888 Challenge
95: IX Challenge
95: MAX. (period) Challenge
100: ENDYMION Challenge
100: PARANOiA Revolution Challenge
100: Valkyrie dimension Challenge

I'm cool with it. Where would my "3 S's" (snow prism, SUMIDAGAWA KARENKA, and SEITEN Bon Voyage)'s and charts be?

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Why would you do that?

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Cuz 100 is a power of ten and a much more satisfying number than 19 dammit.

Or 20, depending on your perspective.

The real reason is because I’m nuts.

if you were to really rate charts on such a precise scale i feel like these would have more differing numbers

like... paranoia revolution 96, valkyrie dimension 98, endymion 99 or 100

I intentionally had current 19s be the top of the scale to avoid a demand for harder charts due to a rating quota sort of situation, which is something I hate about the x-scale. In my mind all the 19s are similar enough to where there isn’t need for differentiation between them and that they all deserve the top rating. Plus only having one 100 would be dull lol.

https://www.cnn.com/2018/02/14/us/florida-high-school-shooting/index.html

Worst Valentines Day Ever...goddamn it...

Can we already say that 2018 is the worst year ever? I kinda feel we should just skip to 2020 instead...

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2016 was worse.

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Ugh. The worst part of all this is how the shooter actually attempted to escape by blending in with the students. Thankfully it didn't work, and I'm actually kinda glad that finally we have a shooter who we can actually try in court. This is still sickening, no matter how you look at it.

Cue the completely empty "thoughts and prayers" statements from politicians who will then proceed to do absolutely fucking nothing about any of this.

It's stories like these that make me not want to go outside, anywhere.

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My logical power trip is over, but I'll see what I can do so that the good people can separate themselves from the lost MONSTERS.

I'm very deliberate with my language, but I try my best not to use expletives...

rapidemboar: Life is sickening, but try to reach out to President Trump before you realize what my suffering felt like.

PureBlue: I think WE ALL can agree that prayers have good intentions, but they simply don't go anywhere. At the very least...

NewbStepper: Let's fix the problem, rather than being judgemental, and I can work on being outside *WINK*

P.S. LET US ALL AGREE THAT EVERY USER IS A HUMAN BEING!!!

...Please? America depends on us all...

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I wish there was something that can turn the clock backwards and prevent all of this ever since the start of this century so I can prevent every tragedy from ever happening. Would the world be a happier place if this was done?

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