Let It Out

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It keeps the post sweet and short if you want to wind on and on.

I realize the irony as this actually makes my post longer.

OK here's the long list of problems:

1. I was born with something called Hemophilia. Click the link if you don't know about it, but here's a basic summary: It means your blood does not clot, or should I say clot as normally as a typical person's would. This is a rare inherited bleeding disorder that you can only be born with, and only about 400 (?) babies (99.9% males) are born with it each year.

2. I also have a condition called Avascular Necrosis in my ankle. This is also rare. Yeah I tend to get all the rare stuff. Again, click the link to find out more, but it basically means a loss of blood supply to the joint. I had surgery for it last February, and it still to this day hurts, causing me to limp. It's a very long recovery.

3. Then there's the issue with social skills. I'm still very young, I know, but my friend is about half a year or so older than me, and he could probably get any girlfriend he wanted. Me? The impression I get is that girls just seem to not want to come near me. Maybe it's body language? I don't know. Probably. But the thing is that basically any girl will talk to him.
3.1: Examples: We had this project in World History I called "Teacher for a Day," which means we have to get together and teach a lesson to the class in 20 minutes. My friend and I agreed to work on this together. I'm a pretty shy person, so oral presentations, let's just say, aren't my thing. But he could care less whether it's an oral presentation or not. We (or I anyways) weren't/wasn't quite prepared because we were surprised with the fact that due to the original presenters for that day were sick, we were next. The lesson would have to include the assessment/quiz we made as well.
I took care of all the quiz crap, passing them out, grading them, passing them back to the kids, etc. And yet, nobody gave ME their quizzes! My friend had to give them all to me because the class all gave theirs to him. Then, today, somehow, one of the girl's quiz got misplaced or something, so I found her an extra and gave it to her. Who does she ask her questions to? You guessed it. I grade them and manage them, and everybody knows that we're doing this together. Yet, nobody seems to even notice or care about me.
Then, to make it worse, our teacher (mind you, I love this teacher, but this is the one thing that didn't make me feel any better) wrote in her comments about us presenting, "[Friend] more comfortable in this field, [Me] more dependent on slides." (Yeah, we did a PowerPoint).
On top of all this, I was talking to my friend about it today. During history we were "studying" for tomorrow's Unit Test, and one of my other friends had gone out to the mall with a couple of girls. I asked my friend (the one I did the project with), "What's up with that?" because I got the impression he wouldn't do something like that. My friend said "Nothing. [Me], you can have girls as friends!" making it sound like I thought it was weird to have girls as friends, which is the exact opposite of how I feel. I actually WANT girls as friends in real life. So then I was talking to him about what else happened today, what with the girl and the misplaced quiz, and all he says is "I think people just see me as more prominent and you might come across as more shy." Then I said something else, like "It's like girls just don't want to come near me." All he says is "Once again I'm just more prominent." Thanks a lot for the kind support.

4. Another thing is that one day, this girl he totally has no idea existed came up to him and said something about how she does some sport with one of his relatives. To this day, they are still friends, and now he likes her. Earlier on, he was thinking about asking her out, and I'm sure she would say yes if he did. To this day, however, he has still, for some reason, not done it.

5. The other thing about girls is that none of them approaches me first. If I want to have a conversation, I have to say something, and I get the feeling of this negative energy. Something's not right, and I don't like it.

6. In relation to #5, I volunteer at a Health Care Center near me, and a few of the residents have said stuff like "Got any girlfriends?" or "How many girls chase you?" because they notice that I look handsome (I don't think I do, but whatever). On Valentine's Day, I was helping my "employer" so to speak, pass out valentines to the residents she had made for them, and one of them said to me, "I'm sure you give these to all your girls!" These comments make me feel flattered, but uncomfortable as well, because of the reality of how untrue it is.

My friends don't have Hemophilia or Avascular Necrosis (You can call it AVN). THEY don't have to put up with medicinal injections 3 times a week. THEY don't have to put up with having been on crutches for 6 weeks after an AVN surgery. THEY don't have to put up with worrying about the scartissue (replacing the dead bone due to loss of blood supply to the ankle joint) collapsing. THEY don't have to worry about ANYTHING I have to worry about.

On a final note, this "friend" gets better grades than me most of the time. Right now though I'm only comparing English mostly: (H) means honors.

SPANISH II (H): A+ 95.75
ENGLISH I (H): C+ 76.9
PHYSICAL SCIENCE: A 91
GYM: A+ 100
WORLD HISTORY I (H): A 92
GEOMETRY: A 94

His English I (H) grade: A 92

This is a detailed breakdown of my English I (H) average:

5/5, 100% A+
10/10, 100% A+
35/50, 70% C

My school uses PowerSchool, which calculates the final grade as (Points Earned) / (Points Possible). So therefore:
50/65, 76.9% C+

Current Q3 GPA: 3.962
Status: Honors, because High Honor Requirements are: GPA of 3.7 or higher, with minimum grade of B (80% or above).