Let It Out

I sold my PS1, PS2, and Xbox video game collection for $220. I also sold off the following:

3 PS2 consoles
1 PSP
1 XBOX
1 Gameboy Color
1 Gameboy Advance SP
The Beatles Rock Band Drum set
Rock Band 2 Drum set and Guitar for Xbox
All of my DDR games
2 Beatmania US bundles

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Hmm? What happened? Trying to understand the details but it's hard from only one sentence.

Also I don't know if anyone here would be able to answer that question without being a snark, so I guess it's good that I respond. I know that I've been hospitalized because of a mental breakdown...that was about 10 years ago though. I know from experience that it's possible to get through that scenario stronger than before. Sure it may take a lot of visits with psychologists and whatnot but things can certainly improve drastically.

Unpopular belief aside, I believe I can attribute the success of my trials to Jesus. People here won't understand it, heck not even I can understand it. Just that I know that the end result of such a trial as this was that I got all the help I needed to be in the position I am, which is pursuing my Bachelor's degree in Graphic Communication. Yeah I still have my moments, but I'm getting by...and that's a good sign of improvement.

Anyway...didn't need to brag. Kinda got carried away but whatever's going on, I don't think Jesus is absent as much as He is molding you in ways that you might not even become without trials. It's not easily comprehensible, but sometimes when I see the bigger picture, I can see how the trials play a bigger role in improving my life. I hope for whatever is going on that you will be able to do the same~

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I agree and also let us not forget that Jesus can use this to help you.

It's just that, by my own personal logic, I can proclaim to be a successor to Jesus Christ, but that would make me a lunatic.

I actually look up to those such as (but not limited to) Mokou and NewbStepper, but I just want to make sure nobody commits 'sudoku', since I knew I was close to that point, both on this website and even in my own actual life.

I really just want peace, but for now, I'll pretend to ACT like a Jesus Christ figure.

(It's this logic that makes me want a point system back on this site, regardless of its flaws.)

(Thank you, @Foxytail and @bmhedgehog !)

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What the fuck is this page

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... What? .__.

Nezemarth, are you feeling alright? What happened? How did you get hospitalized (for pretending to be a nice guy)? That sudden post yesterday got me a little alarmed, but then you follow up here and I can't figure out what you're trying to say or how it correlates to the previous post. I'm a little bit worried.

If you need someone to talk to, I'm all ears. Please stay safe, man. You're one of the nicest members I've seen in the community and I don't want anything to happen to you...

I have no idea.

I don't know.

I don't know anything.

Help me.

Please.

Please.

WHAT.

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I'm a good god, huh..........................................



Someone here please get hnkul702 to MURDER ME!!!

(I knew I was sad for the points system going away, but I'm desperate for this site to include a reward system (System of spoils?- I know A. Jackson invented THAT) for me (trying to be a nice person). All I know is that seven users (NOT INCLUDING ME) have the power to allow Sigrev2 to change his username, as well as the power to forgive me for not being perfect enough...)

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what the fuck i am legitimately concerned now

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What the heck I want to try sudoku(...!)

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Please respond to my PM, Nezemarth.

Well, it's just philosophy...

I'm still upset that people don't know how to judge a chart correctly, and I've had to deal with my whole summer (the 2016 ZIv Summer Contest, I think) being threatened my being honest.

But don't worry about me TOO MUCH. I just want everyone to know that SUICIDE (i.e. 'sudoku') is just NOT HELPFUL!

Also, I think religion is conflated with our understanding of our world.

Bernie has some good plans, but the capitalist mongrels are simply scared of having their money robbed.

Also, once I earn money as a psychiatrist, I just want to direct a good portion of my salary to HELPFUL CHARITIES, because strangely enough, I think ISIS is exploiting the wandering souls it discovers.

Just... think about my signature, okay? Then I'll feel safe.

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You're having a mental breakdown over simfiles? Hahaha oh man, good luck in the real world.

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OH, I've BEEN IN THE REAL WORLD, chewi! (But you see, I'm only a high school student, who's being overly 'coddled' by two loving parents who can't face their flaws.)

(Also, my computer might be at risk, according to ByteFence)

So literally, I'm using hyperbole to attract attention towards possible flaws.

So if there were a way to judge individual comments, ZIv in 2018 would be lovely.

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You're a true basket case, huh?

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I guess I am. Personal friendship drama has lead to me looking for 'support' from the real world- I'm just challenging assumptions that non-suicidal people might have over EVERYONE.

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Not trying to sound snarky here, but using hyperbole to attract attention might be a possible flaw in and of itself, especially if people are taking the hyperbole literally.

I'm sure people around here would love to help with whatever it is you're feeling right now, but people can't really help you if you're not straightforward about what the problem actually is. Just you going all crazy about how people judge simfiles only tells me you're taking Stepmania way too seriously and you need to rethink your priorities.

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Seriously, I want to go back to high school without worrying over the non-accelerated classes, and I wish for my friends to agree with my personal philosophy. Even Victor's monster needs love, right...?


People like to believe that they know what suffering is. And you're right- I want people to look at everyone except me, before my personal name gets spilled out here.

Also, there's gender dysphoria. I'm worried because my mom thought I didn't think seriously enough about the implications of being female. Also, I think that BOTH the gender binary exists as a NECESSARY EVIL, and that people need to feel like INDIVIDUALS, hence the GENDER SPECTRUM. (I wish I were a female, but my parents were such loving homophobes, that I had to convince them that suicide is somehow worse than using guns for killing people.)

(So, suicide is me 'giving up' with my dignity still intact.)

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Talking to parents about gender dysphoria/sexuality is a subjective matter. Believe me, I know. Otherwise I'd advocate for everyone to be open and honest about either topics, including myself. And I don't even know if it's about being homo/transphobic sometimes, because if I just dismiss parents as being such, I avoid any acknowlegement of their vantage point. Oddly enough, I've been skeptical of the LGBT community since before I thought about this for myself...haven't really changed my views that much even still.

I guess I just think that talking about those things to parents tend to be more harm than good. A handful of LGBT advocates may say otherwise, but again their stance on acceptance seems more linked to demands than having an actually mutual conversation.

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I kind of moved on from the lack of point system. I really don't know what to think because I see where it tends to elevate the drama. On the other hand, it can be as beneficial as the like/dislike system in Youtube.

I'm guessing there's a bit of social paranoia without it in your case? I don't know...because I might have been more open knowing that I won't get -5ed for voicing my take on things. Maybe it needs tinkered with, because I think a like/dislike system makes more sense so people aren't freaking out wondering what people disapproved of. Oddly enough, this coming from someone mad at the way it was implemented when someone passed ACE for ACES on . But most of the time it's telling of what people think of the video, hence why the response to YouTube Rewind 2017 is just golden.

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Also, be careful with how you implement hyperbole. I guess if your feelings are really that strong, is it really hyperbole? Otherwise, there's a reason people use the term "attention whore" with regards to it. I know there's a different intent here, but for future reference you want to preferably express your frustrations without manipulating your audience.

Lots of food for thought, but I think you ought to take time to think things through. Hopefully things will calm down and you get the support you need.