Let It Out

New page, new uncentered text. And Lady Gaga.

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I've been wondering to myself how everyone involved in the GilvaSunner account makes these. How?????

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I didn't really want to cause too much attention. (Sounds ironic but hear me out)
Let's just say. Off reading my own posts and how people respond to them, I realized my presence is not really appreciated.
I don't want to go into too many details, but i have, a sickness... which makes me less socially aware of my surroundings. Basically, i can't tell wants appropriate　/ inappropriate, i can't read human emotion that well, and i suck in general conversation. Because of this real life friends have been scarce , some might argue that they weren't really friends at all and that they just pitied me. Either way, I came to here in hopes of being able to add something to the conversation... but i soon realized here too i don't really fit in. Apologies if i derailed this thread in some way or wasted your time. This is probably my last post.
生きてるのに生たくない
生きたくないのに死にたくない
心の中でふたつの感情はずっと競争であり
誰が勝ってるかなぁ
どっちでも結局自殺が必然。

Before you leave, I just hope that you at least take a moment to read this. I'm a bit of an autistic and rather shy person myself. I know what feels like not to belong. And I know it can be really uncomfortable talking with a bunch of strangers on the Internet, where you often have no idea what they're talking about. I felt this a lot on this site and I still do on some of the forums. I also know what it feels like to be underappreciated, and I know that it happens not because of who you are, but that it's just part of everyday life. But here's what I want to say to you:

NEVER GIVE UP.
DO NOT GIVE UP HOPE.

People here can respond with sarcasm, but more often than not they're really not being serious. Why not join the chat and try to get along with someone? Think of this as an opportunity to overcome your struggles, and as a place where you'd have fun with people! Listen, while it may not seem like everyone will, I accept you as you are. I just want to say thank you for being open and honest. If you ever need someone to talk to in private, you are more than welcome to PM me. I'll be here to listen.

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Don't let it get to you. There will always be a person out there who would be willing to be your friend and stay your friend no matter what. I was fucking scared of every member on this site since being banned back at 2009, but then I ended up slowly making friends on here, and they give me reasons to smile. But that's me. Now with YOU, let me say this much: it shouldn't matter what you have. There's always gonna be someone out there who will accept you for you and /actually/ befriend you. Hell, I'LL even be you friend. I know how it feels to feel unaccepted and feel like nobody likes you, but I eventually overcame those feelings and made some friends. Not just on here, but in real life too. All I'm trying to say is you're not alone, and I'm sorry you're going through those feelings.

EDIT: NewbStepper, dear man crush, YOU NINJA'D ME.

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i imagine they have quite a few people doing these considering how often they're uploaded

Happy birthday, TAG!

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That much I know. I meant how the songs are actually made.

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Goodbye Saze. You made me feel like I belong here. You were the first friend I had on this site. Remember when we shared laughs back in December about stuff like that kid at my school, Mark? I will miss you and I truly appreciate you. And I have to say, I agree with NewbStepper. Saze, we all like you and we all know you belong here. We all love BEMANI just as much as you do. I'm so sorry to see you leave.

And don't forget, I'm angel for you. See you again! (|[*'v'*]|)


Here, that person is me! Don't worry!

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Many people feel the same way you do. (myself included)

I'll chat with ya if you want. Not out of pity, but to share what you are thinking.

Look to the sky is still one of the best Sota songs

For people who want some photoshop plug-ins for free that used to cost over 100 bucks...
Here you go:

https://www.google.com/nikcollection/

Click the link above and then click what plug-in you want. There will be a blue box that says "Download now" on the top right of the screen.

(Yes you can replicate these effects with Photoshop, but it can help quicken your workflow or give you a new thing to explore)

Enjoy.

Nice, might just have to use these.

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HEY, I made another osu! beatmap LOL but this one's a joke-impossible beatmap.

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Why people make "I'm leaving" posts in this day and age I'll never know

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well i think i'm just about ready to blow my brains out now, so i'll catch y'all of the ghost side

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Where can I change my username? I'm truncating it to just "LegendaryDJXYZ" on all sites, as it looks less egotistical.

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Perhaps you can try sending a PM to al2k4? If you have a good reason for changing your username, maybe he'll approve it.

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I'm really not sure. He had to crack down hard on it after everyone and their mother requested one, but that was about 7 years ago, and only about three people have requested changes since.

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