Let It Out

how you finna do me dirty like that the day i come back

I'm coming out of my cage and I've been doing just fine.

Thank you Alan for allowing me to come back to the site. I've made some attempts off-site to attempt to talk to you and sort things out but either you didn't see them or you didn't want to deal with me and considering how things went in our last encounter, I don't blame you at all.

I just want to take this time to make a proper apology to everyone on the site. I messed up. The night I was banned, I was needlessly antagonistic and I was being a little shit and while overall it might not have been that big of a deal compared to what some people managed to do and get away with, it was still the final knife in the back and I understand the actions afterward. I was rude and mean and it was not called for. Not a single bit of it was called for.

I thought about this place pretty much daily since I was gone. As silly as that might sound, this place has been a big part of my life for over a decade now and to have left on such a dud note with a sour taste in so many peoples' mouths just never felt right. I've wanted to apologize for my antagonistic behavior for so long but I never knew how to do it or come across doing it. And even typing this up, I don't think I'm doing enough justice.

My only reasoning for my actions at the time was major stress. I had just started a new warehouse job and I was forced to move out of the place I was in the following week. On top of that, I was still jaded from being fired from my last job and then having that painful ass surgery. None of it excuses my negative behavior, but hopefully it sets in place an understanding of where I was coming from. Never should've taken it out on anybody, let alone myself.

I want to thank everyone in the Warnings & Bans thread for coming together to get myself and Nezemarth unbanned. You've shown that the power of a community can make a change.

I love you. I'm sorry. Thank you for letting me make it better. Keep on liftin'.